William Carius - Memorial

I didn't think I would be able to write this on the day - so I am doing this a little ahead of time.

Adding Enya "Only Time" video was done because it is a great song, well, heart-felt, tinged with a little sadness and a lot of love. Just hearing it, as I did for the first time, recalls the 2001 film "Sweet November" with Charlize Theron and Keanu Reeves - I think it comes in the film where Keanu realises what Chelise's character means to him - guess it therefore touches a raw nerve with me on that count as well.

Only time - that's all you have and you fill it with love and wonderful memories. In the hardness which is life, where what you believe to be true is periodically re-adjusted by reality - somewhere amongst the detris of life you fine a sparkling gem which refracts the bland white light of the world into glorious colour.

Bill, I would like to let you know you were one of those rare gems for me and for a lot of people - but especially for me - perhaps the only human being I have been lucky enough to come across who truly woke up my soul and encouraged my heart to sour.

You lifted me up with only a look...I disintegrated before your smile. I hope when I look up to the clouds that you might, as I asked you too, think of you looking down on me from your part of the world.

Bless you for being, and visiting upon my spirit your wonderful heart, and may it always be so.

Barely a day goes by where I do not think of you and your photo on my desk looks out into my empty room because I am walking with you always in the clouds high above Anchorage - monumental love to you.